Hi everyone, my name is Nadège-Zoe Tuyishime. I am the founder of this Christian Blog: “He has already begun! And this is my Salvation story.
Before I start sharing my Testimony with you, let us pray.
“Father God, I thank You for Your love and mercy. I praise You for this opportunity that You are giving me today to share my Testimony. LORD, please encounter every soul reading this article today and those who will read it in the future.
Almighty God, I come against any distraction from the enemy that may try to hinder whoever is reading this post from receiving what You have prepared for them today. Father God, I pray all this in Your Son’s name, Jesus Christ. Amen!
Throughout my life, I have noticed that I enjoy listening to testimonies. They often increase my faith and leave me with an overwhelming joy.
I am honored and privileged to share my salvation story journey with you today. May it bring something new into your life as you read this post.
Summarizing my Salvation story in one or two verses would be like the following Bible passage. The story below tells us about the time when Jesus healed a demon-possessed man. After the healing, Jesus asked the man to return to his hometown and proclaim what God did to him.
"The man who had been freed from the demons begged to go with him. But Jesus sent him home, saying,
"No, go back to your family, and tell them everything God has done for you." So he went all through the town proclaiming the great things Jesus had done for him."
-Luke 8:38-39 NLT
As I was getting ready to launch this Blog, the LORD my God gave me this encouraging Word from this passage below.
”One night the Lord spoke to Paul in a vision and told him, “Don’t be afraid! Speak out! Don’t be silent! For I am with you, and no one will attack and harm you, for many people in this city belong to me.”“
-Acts of the Apostles 18:9-10 NLT
I also pray that I will proclaim this message as clearly as I should.” Amen!
- (Colossians 4:4 NLT).
Here is how my journey with God started:
My background story
I was born and raised in Bujumbura, the capital of Burundi, a small country in East Africa. I grew up in a lovely home with my parents and three siblings. We had a decent and good life.
Unfortunately, as mentioned in my “About Me page,” I was a victim of Child Sexual Abuse (CSA) in my early childhood (younger than seven). These abuses left so many painful wounds in my life that affected my mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual health.
From the moment those abuses stopped happening, I went through a lot of emotional pain day and night. And that continued until the day I got saved in my twenties. I praise God for the healing journey He took me through so that I can finally live a transformed life. In that journey, the LORD my God healed, mended and restored my heart for good. Amen!
Because of my healing, now I am bold and confident enough to share what He has done for me without fear. Amen!
Open wounds caused by CSA
I grew up in a small country where they barely talked about sexual abuse. I didn’t have a safe space to open up freely about what happened to me as a child. Unfortunately, there was nowhere I could seek help from.
Therefore, this forced me to keep it to myself regardless of the emotional pain I was going through. Sadly, I had to endure the emotional wounds of child sexual abuse (CSA) all by myself. I also faced a lot of mental and spiritual wounds with no active help around me.
One of the most painful wounds that I faced was the fact that I couldn’t love God or trust Him at all. For so many years, I couldn’t accept Him into my life because I kept blaming Him for what happened to me.
For years, I couldn’t understand how can God be a good Father. I would reason: “How could someone proclaimed to be good allow child sexual abuse to happen to anyone?”
But praise God! Even though I felt like I couldn’t love Him then, it was right around that time that He started to pursue me even more.
The first time I heard God’s Voice.
When I was 12, my family and I attended my cousin’s wedding in the countryside. I shared a room with my sister at a local hotel that night. For some reason, I was so scared to go to bed. The room was so cold, making falling asleep even harder.
As I closed my eyes, trying to fall asleep, a warm and peaceful presence suddenly entered our room. And somehow, I felt warmer, as if someone had just placed a warm blanket over me. Then I heard an audible Man’s voice telling me, “Don’t be afraid! I am here with you.”
That Man’s voice was so tangible and clear that I thought someone else was in the room with us. I had to open my eyes and look around the room to ensure nobody else was there. That tangible presence was so peaceful that I fell asleep right away.
I don’t remember exactly how I realized God was talking to me. However, deep in my heart, I understood and believed it was Him.
A few weeks or months later, I attended worship nights on Mondays at our neighborhood Catholic Church, a great hangout place for the youth.
Most people would go there to meet up with their friends. But I had a different mission: to seek the voice that spoke to me that night on my cousin’s wedding weekend.
During those worship nights, the first session consisted of worship, and then testimonies followed. The Word of God will be heard at the end.
It was during those gatherings that I first learned that people could experience emotional wounds caused by traumatic events. Some of the testimonies I heard were from genocide survivors and orphans. They would testify of how God healed their wounds and changed their lives.
I had never heard a victim of CSA (Child Sexual Abuse) testifying during those worship nights. Despite that, I still believed that the God who healed genocide survivors and fatherless orphans was the same God I had to seek.
After hearing that there was hope for the broken-hearted, I only wanted to find the healing I heard about. So, I decided to go on a journey in pursuit of healing.
The pursuit of healing
The healing journey was difficult because I didn’t know precisely where to start. Although I understood that Jesus Christ could heal me, the “how” was the battle that I struggled with for years. And, of course, the enemy was determined to ensure I never met my Healer.
It is hard to describe what was happening in my heart then, but it resembles one of the parables from the Bible—the story about a farmer scattering his seed on different grounds.
Some seed falls on a footpath, but the birds eat it. Other seeds fell among rocks, but they soon died. Others fell among thorns, but thorns choked them out. (Luke 8: 4-15). This parable was the life I lived daily around that time.
I still remember stopping at the marketplace on my way back from school most evenings to listen to street preachers. For some reason, street preachers have always amazed me. I believe it is because of their boldness in proclaiming the Gospel in the middle of a marketplace.
Although the marketplace was loud and busy, I would stop for about 30 minutes and listen to the Word of God. Every time, I would go home overwhelmed with joy.
On my way home, while on the Bus, my heart was overwhelmed with joy, and hope stirred within me. But then, two or three days later, the enemy would steal that overwhelming joy away from me. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me.
Unfortunately, the enemy started to deceive me by infusing confusion in my heart. I began to feel as if I wanted to belong to Jesus earnestly, but He didn’t want me in return.
But now I understand it was all because I haven’t given my life to Jesus yet. Therefore, I couldn’t belong to Jesus because He wasn’t living in my heart yet.
Those beautiful and joyful moments I experienced back then were caused by the Holy Spirit as He drew me near to God. Yet, the issue was that I still didn’t know how to invite or receive Jesus Christ into my life.
For several years, the Devil took advantage of my lack of knowledge. Therefore, he kept stealing every Word the Holy Spirit placed in me.
During my last years of high school, I attended a boarding school and joined a small group led by a local Pentecostal church. We had worship gatherings daily after class. During the two years I spent in that boarding school, I got closer to God than ever.
I started reading the Bible regularly. And my heart began to experience peace and an overwhelming joy that I couldn’t control or contain. Daily, I longed to be in the presence of the LORD with my classmates through worship.
I also decided to start learning more about God through Baptism classes. The Church required these classes for people who wanted to get Baptized in much water. Unfortunately, I don’t remember if anyone ever asked me if I had ever prayed the “Salvation prayer” or if I wanted to receive Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.
During that time, I started living a set-apart lifestyle. However, I focused more on outward appearance as a tangible proof of a Born-again Christian person’s transformation. Unfortunately, my heart was not changing.
Although I felt closer to God then, I didn’t know Him personally. Now that I think about it, I believe I was piggybacking on the anointing present in our little Small Group.
While in the small group, I often experienced peace and joy in my heart. But the second I stepped outside that room, depression and intense sadness would hit me suddenly.
I praise God for using that phase of my life. Even though I didn’t know Him personally then, it still brought me closer to Him. As mentioned earlier, the Devil was watching to ensure I never received Salvation.
Almost halfway through the Baptism classes, I started failing badly in school. My grades dropped significantly. I immediately concluded that I was failing because I was spending too much time attending Church activities.
So, I compulsively left the boarding school, stopped participating in the small group, and stopped taking the Baptism classes. Despite leaving the boarding school, I was still attending the same school.
My school had two options: some students were in boarding school, and others would go home after classes. The only difference was that I couldn’t participate in some activities organized by the boarding school.
The time I walked away from God.
As mentioned, I stopped participating in church activities after leaving the boarding school. Unfortunately, things got worse. Around this time, I experienced what people like to call “Church hurt!”
One day, just before we left school, someone from my former Christian Small Group approached me. They said they wanted to talk to me about God. I believe that person said they had a message from God for me.
Now that I think about it, I believe the enemy used this person to cause me to stumble because this person’s words were not friendly or comforting.
Their statement was: “I had a dream/vision about you. I saw that your soul/spirit was dead. I saw flies hovering all over your dead spirit. That’s what I saw about you.”
Although what they said was true, spiritually speaking, since I didn’t have Christ in me. But the sad part is that I don’t recall if that person ever suggested that I repent for my sins or return to God.
All I remember is that those unfriendly words lingered in my mind after that person left, echoing inside my head. I immediately felt a change in the atmosphere. It was like someone switched off a light from within my heart, allowing complete darkness to enter.
The second they rang the bell, I grabbed my backpack, stood up, and walked away. I didn’t even say goodbye to my friends. Walking towards the school bus, I suddenly thought about this song a Christian Church from back home would sing often.
They sang it while describing “unbelievers/non-Christians.“ These were the song lyrics:
“Unbelievers, even if you see them walking in the streets, they are nothing but open graves/coffins.”
As I walked towards the School Bus, these words repeatedly played in my head: “You are dead inside!”
Unfortunately, due to a lack of knowledge and discernment, it was at that very moment that I decided to walk away from God. But before I did so, I complained to God, and here is what I said to Him:
“Since I was 12, I have been trying so hard to find You. But it seems like You don’t want me, God! Since You don’t want to heal me, I will leave You alone. You said that I was dead inside; maybe that’s it. If you don’t want me, I will never bother asking You anything anymore.”
Unfortunately, on that confusing afternoon, I left God and everything about Him behind. But praise God for His unconditional love and mercy.
Even if I told Him those painful words and decided to walk away from Him, glory to Him for not rejecting me. He sought me even when I deliberately walked away. He still loved, pursued me, and didn’t give up on me.
Wandering in the wilderness
A couple of years after that incident, I moved to the United States. For several years, I was so angry with God. I blamed Him for all the bad things that ever happened to me.
As a result, I lost all interest in anything God-related and even stopped praying altogether. I wouldn’t even say the Grace Before Meals for so many years. That’s how far I was gone.
There was a season in my life when I barely attended Church. Sometimes, I spent months without stepping into the House of God.
Even when I went, it was only out of religious motives. I would tell myself, “It’s my culture’s tradition to attend Church on Sundays. Therefore, I will go because I have to, even if I don’t want to.”
Whenever I went to Church, I couldn’t enjoy the service. I would zone out during the entire service and couldn’t wait to leave and go home.
As the years went by, life disappointed me repeatedly. I could not find the peace I once encountered.
Of course, God didn’t ignore me. Although I wasn’t actively involved in any Christian-based community, I often longed to experience that peaceful presence from high school once more.
One night, after spending a long and painful day, I was lying down in my bed, sobbing for hours. But then, I somehow had a vision. In that vision, I saw someone coming into my room. That person grabbed a chair and sat in front of me, facing me.
All of a sudden, the atmosphere in my little room changed. I felt a familiar, warm, peaceful presence I had experienced in high school.
Although my heart was still in pain, I did experience a comforting and peaceful presence when I started having that vision.
While tears were still running down my face, I asked that person: “Who are you?”
That person answered: “Who do you think I am?”
I said: “Are you Jesus? If yes, why is my life so miserable? Why can’t I heal? Why God doesn’t want to heal me? What have I done to deserve this?”
At that moment, I felt like the LORD was calling me to return to Him. I don’t know how to explain it, but I understood that the person I saw in that vision was Jesus Christ. If you would like to know how I found that out, it was because of the words He told me when I asked Him why my life was so miserable.
He responded, “I am not evil! Whatever image you have of Me is not accurate. But if you could give me a little space in your heart and let me in, I will prove that I am not evil. I will show you the real Me.”
In other words, this verse below clearly explains what I experienced and heard that night:
"Jesus replied, "If you only knew the gift God has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask me, and I would give you living water." -John 4:10 NLT
It took me a couple of more years before I finally gave my life to Jesus. Yet, He never turned His eyes from me. When I look back, I recall the many times He protected me. Even though I still considered Him my enemy, now I understand that I can’t easily break the LORD’s heart. Amen!
Before I got saved, the LORD started removing everything that would have hindered me from receiving Him wholeheartedly. One year before I surrendered my life to Him, I began to see my life changing. Around that time, I wasn’t even praying, but my behavior gradually shifted.
I experienced one of the most disappointing incidents one month before I got saved. After many years of ignoring God, that incident pushed me to seek God’s help again. I realized I had no other option but to turn to God again.
A few weeks after that disappointing incident, I told God: “I have been running away from You for too long. This is it! I can’t run away from You anymore. And I am tired of running away from my childhood.
Therefore, I am going to try this Christian lifestyle. Whatever happens next, I am determined to follow You because I know I can’t heal myself.
I want to experience that comforting and peaceful presence I always felt during worship in boarding school. Jesus, next Sunday, I am determined to give my life to You. This time, I won’t run away from You anymore.”
The day I met my Lord and Savior.
Whenever I try to explain what is Salvation to an unbeliever, I always find myself saying this statement:
“Salvation is like finding an answer to all of your longings. For instance, if you long for a father, God will become your Father. If you are looking for a friend, God will be that friend who never leaves. I was looking for healing, and Jesus became my Healer instead. Jesus Christ can be anything you are looking for.”
In a few words, that is how I met my King. For over 15 years, I sought for healing found in Him. I desperately wanted Him to heal me from all the wounds that I carried around due to childhood sexual abuse.
However, the most amazing miracle I have ever experienced is that it only took Him a few seconds to heal me. He snatched me out of Satan’s claws for good. He wanted me to belong to Him more than healing my heart only. His ultimate desire was to make me His before healing my heart.
A week before I gave my life to Jesus, I was filled with the Holy Spirit almost daily. During that week, I had an overwhelming joy that I couldn’t contain.
On the morning of that unforgettable day, I had a vision while getting ready for Church. As I looked at myself in the mirror while putting on makeup, I heard a quiet voice asking me, “If you die today, where would you go?”
The second I heard those words, I responded: “I am going to give my life to Jesus today! I will do it.”
When I got to Church, I sat in one of the back rows and couldn’t wait to hear the part where the Preacher invites people to give their lives to Jesus.
It was on the last Sunday of the corporate 21 days of prayer and fasting at the beginning of the year at our local Church. A Guest speaker was preaching. At the end of her sermon, when she invited people to give their lives to Jesus, she said:
“If you need to give your life to Jesus, please come to the Altar. I know that some of you are wondering where you would go if you die today. You don’t need to live in fear anymore. Come on up here and give your life to Jesus Christ!”
The second the Preacher said the exact words I heard a couple of hours ago, I knew that was my cue to stand up and pray with the others.
As the Preacher led us corporately, praying the salvation prayer, I felt a sudden change in my heart. During those few seconds, while saying the salvation prayer, I heard all kinds of insults from the enemy thrown at me at once. In a matter of seconds, they all flashed back into my head.
And then, by the second, I said: “In Jesus’ mighty name, I pray. Amen!” Something amazing happened. I started feeling lighter from within my heart. God removed the heaviness I had been carrying around for years.
After I finished praying with the others, I understood that I had just received the supernatural healing I had sought since I was 12.
The first tangible evidence that proved my healing was when I heard myself saying words I had never spoken before. While standing, I said this prayer in my heart: “I forgive you! Today, I forgive you for what you did to me. I forgive you for raping me and destroying my childhood. I forgive you.”
In my entire life, not once was I able to say the name of the perpetrator who sexually abused me without crying. Each time I had flashbacks of what happened, I would despise him even more and would bitterly cry. His name was a trigger word.
But from that very second, after I forgave him, I could say his name for the first time without bursting into tears. And I started to bless him and prayed that he would receive Salvation. Even now, I still pray for him and his family whenever the Holy Spirit asks me to do so.
Looking back at what happened that day, I understand that the LORD God is the God of the impossible. Of all the things God could have asked me to do, He softened my heart and enabled me to forgive the person I viewed as my worst enemy for over 15 years.
For years, I sought God’s healing and discovered that I had been looking for it elsewhere. But in reality, it comes with the gift of Salvation.
The Salvation Prayer
Note: Before I continue my Testimony, I want to invite anyone reading this post who hasn’t given their life to Jesus Christ or received Him as their Lord and Savior to pay close attention.
Whether you were a victim of CSA or went through any traumatic event in your life, and you have been seeking a breakthrough for years. You can receive what you have been searching for today. Jesus Christ of Nazareth can answer all of your longings.
I have a few questions to ask anyone reading this post:
- Would you like to receive Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior?
- Do you feel like you need a Savior in your life?
- Are you tired of living a life filled with pain and suffering?
- Do you desire to stop living a sinful lifestyle and become a new creation from this day forward?
- Are you debating if Jesus Christ lives in you or not?
- Or maybe you used to follow Him, then life happened, and you chose to walk away?
If you answered “Yes!” to any of these questions above, here is the prayer you should pray so that you can belong to Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
The Bible says:
"Jesus told him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me." -John 14:6 NLT
This verse above means that there is no other way to heaven but to become a follower of Jesus Christ. And we do this by inviting Him into our hearts.
The Bible also says:
"If you openly declare that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." -Romans 10:9 NLT
By praying the Salvation prayer, you willingly give access to the Holy Spirit to live inside your spirit. And from there, He will start supernaturally changing your life.
Are you ready to receive Jesus Christ as Your Lord and Savior?
Pray like this:
“Lord Jesus, thank you for your love and your mercy. Thank you for loving me regardless of my many sins. Today, I pray that you will forgive me for my sins. I invite you in my heart and accept you as my Lord and Savior.
Change, transform, and make me a new creation from the inside out. Help me walk in Your path daily with the help of the Holy Spirit.
From this day forward, may You have complete control over my life. I surrender my life to You, Jesus Christ.
Thank You, Lord Jesus, for saving me and making me yours forever. Amen!”
Congratulations, and welcome to the big family of Christ. His Word says that whenever one sinner repents, angels throw a big party in heaven for that person. Know that today, the entire heaven is rejoicing for you.
"In the same way, there is joy in the presence of God's angels when even one sinner repents." -Luke 15:10 NLT
My calling
Often, whenever I meet a CSA survivor within my sphere of influence, I get filled up with a lot of compassion for them. Especially when I notice that they are still struggling with some of the aftermath consequences I encountered caused by the sexual abuse.
My compassion for them causes me to think of ten million ways to help them heal and be free from past hurt.
The second I started to experience God’s goodness after years of pursuit. I committed to always helping others find the treasure I found in Christ Jesus.
I am aware that I don’t have the power to install Jesus Christ into someone else’s heart. However, I praise God for the Holy Spirit, who always reminds me that my Testimony can be someone else’s prophecy.
I believe that sharing the Gospel with teenagers, Young Adults, Adult CSA survivors, and their families is one of the life assignments/callings that the LORD GOD has entrusted me with. And sharing my Salvation Story is the best way to start this journey.


The reason why I am sharing my story
Sharing the Gospel with CSA Survivors is one of my life assignments. God placed this burden in my heart within the first six months after I got saved while attending Celebrate Recovery at my local Church.
Ever since then, I have started sharing my testimony with a few people within my inner circle, and sometimes, I share the burden God placed in my heart with them.
The question I would often get from them was: “Where do you get that boldness from? Considering your culture and still, you are willing to be used by God in this area.”
My answer to them is similar to the story of Jesus healing ten men with leprosy. However, only one man was grateful enough to come back and thank Jesus for healing him.
"11 As Jesus continued on toward Jerusalem, he reached the border between Galilee and Samaria. 12 As he entered a village there, ten men with leprosy stood at a distance, 13 crying out, "Jesus, Master, have mercy on us!"
14 He looked at them and said, "Go show yourselves to the priests." And as they went, they were cleansed of their leprosy. 15 One of them, when he saw that he was healed, came back to Jesus, shouting, "Praise God!"
16 He fell to the ground at Jesus' feet, thanking him for what he had done. This man was a Samaritan. 17 Jesus asked, "Didn't I heal ten men? Where are the other nine?
18 Has no one returned to give glory to God except this foreigner?" 19 And Jesus said to the man, "Stand up and go. Your faith has healed you."" -Luke 17:11-19 NLT
Surrendering to God’s calling for my life to serve God in this area (Childhood sexual abuse/CSA) wasn’t an easy journey. God had to take me on a long journey of transformation.
During the pruning, crushing, and making season, I gave God a hard time whenever He tried to explain how He wanted to use me in CSA survivors’ lives.
For over a year, I kept giving Him a list of things that would disqualify me from this assignment He was presenting me. But I praise God for His goodness because He would tell me often:
“My Daughter, your scars, past mistakes, darkest nights, and everything else I healed you from make you the right candidate for this life assignment. Don’t fear people’s opinions, mainly the ones who knew you before you got saved.
I AM the one who called you, and I AM the one who will equip you. Just show up, my Daughter, and then I will do the rest! I will give you the right words to say at the right time. Fear not, my Daughter, because I will be with you throughout this journey.”
The main reason I am sharing my Testimony is that I am choosing to return to the LORD and praise Him publicly for what He has done for me for the last couple of years. Also, I’m refusing to be one of the nine ungrateful, healed men who never returned to give thanks.
May the LORD enable me at every opportunity to share my Testimony with boldness and confidence. Also, I am always determined to be that one healed person who comes back to praise God repeatedly for the remaining days of my life on this earth.
For the Word of God tells me:
(...) “Don’t be afraid! Speak out! Don’t be silent! For I am with you, (...)
-Acts of the Apostles 18:9-10 NLT
In Conclusion:
A few days before I decided to share my Testimony on this platform, I was listening to a sermon explaining why talking about God’s goodness in our lives is essential.
The Preacher of that Sermon, Apostle Yoshua Ndagijimana Masasu, said:
: “I am inviting every single person who is here to start sharing your Testimony with others. Your Testimony can be encouraging and helpful to someone going through the same thing God delivered you from.
Then why keep quiet when your Testimony is a remedy for someone else’s disease? The more you delay sharing your Testimony publicly, the more you give space to the Devil in your life.
And if you cannot testify here on the pulpit due to lack of time or for some other reason, I encourage you to go ahead and create your own platform. Please Do not keep quiet because many lives can be transformed just by listening to your Testimony.”
Today, I pray that the LORD my God transforms your life as you read this Testimony. Please share it with your friends and family members. You never know whose life will be changed by reading it. I also invite you to start sharing your Salvation Story with others.
If I could choose the right song to summarize my Salvation Story, it would be “Mercy by Elevation Worship.”
And the story in the Bible that could talk about my story in detail is this one below:
"24 Jesus went with him, and all the people followed, crowding around him. 25 A woman in the crowd had suffered for twelve years with constant bleeding. 26 She had suffered a great deal from many doctors, and over the years she had spent everything she had to pay them, but she had gotten no better. In fact, she had gotten worse.
27 She had heard about Jesus, so she came up behind him through the crowd and touched his robe. 28 For she thought to herself, "If I can just touch his robe, I will be healed."
29 Immediately the bleeding stopped, and she could feel in her body that she had been healed of her terrible condition. 30 Jesus realized at once that healing power had gone out from him, so he turned around in the crowd and asked, "Who touched my robe?"
31 His disciples said to him, "Look at this crowd pressing around you. How can you ask, 'Who touched me?'"
32 But he kept on looking around to see who had done it. 33 Then the frightened woman, trembling at the realization of what had happened to her, came and fell to her knees in front of him and told him what she had done.
34 And he said to her, "Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace. Your suffering is over." -Mark 5:24-34 NLT
Thank you for taking the time to read and share this Testimony with others. I hope it blessed you. Before you go, allow me to pray this following verse over you.
"Now may the God of peace make you holy in every way, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless until our Lord Jesus Christ comes again." -1 Thessalonians 5:23 NLT
Amen! Amen! And Amen!
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